Chapter V- Crooked Man
…I have spent a lot of time with Alex. The trip we planned for Miami fell through, so we spent most of the day, Friday chillin and getting to know each other better.
I made up my mind when I first met him not to sweat him, to give him space during his two to three week Christmas break. So on that personal understanding I went about my normal weekend activities of going to church and hanging out with my boys from church.
Still, Alex was on my mind most of the time because it was New Year’s Eve and I wanted to ring it in with him. He had already told me that he probably wouldn’t be free until after the new year rang in. Although I was disappointed, I was cool with that because it gave me a chance to catch up on sleep. The problem, however, was he never called again after that conversation to let me know the deal. Now I’m disappointed and hurt.
During my Sunday morning walk, I thanked God for the opportunity to meet Alex and then commenced to fill his ethereal ears with my feelings. I felt a bit weird expressing my hurt to God about this new thing in my life, especially knowing that He disapproves. Yet, I let it all flow because He said, “cast all your cares on me.” I did. Afterwards, I prayed for my family, Alex again, and my future plans. Since meeting Alex, I’ve been walking and talking with God a lot more.
I caught up with him later Sunday afternoon for lunch/dinner at a restaurant near the airport. He looked great. I had only seen him in sweats and t-shirts, but this time I was able to see the real Alex: gray slacks, wine loafers, black long sleeve button down, and chardonnay long sleeve sweater vest.